Healing Psychic Wounds of Codependency

Healing Psychic Wounds of Codependency

Codependency is more than a relationship problem. It wounds our psyche and individual development. Make no mistake. Its to no fault of our own. The wounds of codependency is adaptive and helped us survive growing up in a dysfunctional family system. But that adjustment cost us our individuality, authenticity, and our future quality of life. The beliefs and behaviors we learned then led to problems in adult relationships. In fact, they tend to recreate the dysfunctional family of our past.

Wounds of Codependency Begin in Childhood

Codependency is both learned and passed on generationally. It starts in childhood, usually because of codependent parenting, including being raised by an addict or mentally or emotionally ill parent. To survive, were required to adapt to the needs, actions, and emotions of our parents at the expense of developing an individual Self. Repetitious patterning shaped our personality style with supporting beliefs, which were both learned and inferred from parental behavior. They were formed by our immature infant-toddler mind in the context of total dependency on our parents. An example is, I must not cry (or express anger) to be safe, held, and loved.

We developed a codependent persona, employing strategies of strength, pleasing, or withdrawal to persevere dysfunctional parenting. Appropriately using all of these is healthy, but codependents compulsively rely mostly on only one or two. In Conquering Shame and Codependency, I describe these coping mechanisms and personalities as The Master, The Accommodator, and The Bystander.

Pediatrician and psychiatrist Donald Winnicott believed that early childhood trauma threatens annihilation of the Self. Its a disorientating shock that affects us on multiple systems. Trauma marginalizes thinking and impairs our ability to successfully unprotected to developmental responsibilities. Imagine a unprotected infant having to conquer the threat of extinction while navigating interpersonal relationships, which should feel safe. He or she must be hypervigilant to anticipate and interpret parental responses and adjust consequently. Normal interpersonal development suffers. Instead, maintaining attachment becomes our priority while we nevertheless have to cope with current relational trauma in childhood and later as adults.

Hence, development of a fully-embodied Self is stunted by this system of accommodation. Effective parenting requires that parents see their child as separate individuals. They must attune to, empathize with, and honor their childs experience. This allows us to feel safe and helps to develop an independent self. With codependent caregivers, we instead attune to them. We perversely organize our mental state to adjust to our parents.

For example, how can a child navigate safety and fill his or her need for love with an inattentive, eager, basic, or controlling parent? An eager or abusive parent makes us eager and fearful. A controlling parent extinguishes self-trust and initiative. A basic or intrusive parent squelches us, producing insecurity and self-criticism. These early patterns skew our perceptions of ourselves, our work, and our relationships. All of these and other dysfunctional parenting styles copy shame-that were bad, inadequate, and unlovable.

The Cost of Codependency

Early insecure attachments with caregivers necessitate that we sideline our instinctive felt experience. Over time, our personality and responses solidify. Our ability to self-mirror, to course of action new information, to adjust, and to respond becomes impaired. Our responses become stiff and our cognitive distortions feel absolute.

consequently, our individual development is hampered by the selective inclusion and exclusion of data that might provide conflicting information. We develop a template of shoulds and restrictions that function beyond our awareness. We do so because at an ancient, psychic level the different feels terrifying that wed risk losing our connection to another person (i.e., parent) and people in general. In sustain of this, we project our parents responses onto other people.

For example, some of my female clients have impaired perceptions about their attractiveness and cannot be persuaded otherwise. A few may undergo unnecessary cosmetic surgeries despite a consensus that theyre beautiful. Similarly, for many codependents, setting boundaries or asking for their needs feels selfish. They have a strong resistance to doing so, despite that theyre being exploited by a selfish, narcissistic, or abusive partner.

The Challenge of Recovery

The antecedents of our codependent personality are buried in our past. For many of us, it started in beginning. Some of us ingemination a normal childhood and arent able to clarify what went wrong. consequently, our thinking and responses go unquestioned and are obstacles to learning from experience. Additionally, traumas effect on the nervous system makes it both difficult and frightening to uncover our feelings. Modifying our responses and behavior feels dangerous.

We continue to behave according to the early system of accommodation that operates outside our conscious awareness. Were guided by beliefs we never question, such as the shared codependent beliefs, If Im loved, then Im lovable, and If Im unprotected (authentic), Ill be judged and rejected. additionally, we interpret our experiences in ways that fortify fallacious, ancient beliefs. An unreturned text proves that weve displeased someone. This can already happen in therapy when we want to be liked by our therapist or fear his or her displeasure, boredom, or abandonment. A friend (or therapists) lapsed attention proves that were a burden and/or unlikeable.

In intimate relationships, instead of questioning whether a partner meets our needs or is capable of loving, we conclude that were the problem. Our responses to our misguided beliefs can perpetuate or escalate the problems were trying to cure. We might unquestioningly repeat that pattern in later relationships.

Freuds death wish is nothing more than a shame reaction to a punitive critic that rigidly spews out commandments that mimic an abusive or controlling parent or was developed as a child to avoid the terror of emotional abandonment. Our inner dictates grind our spontaneity and ability to experience the complete range of our emotions, particularly, joy. When our normal responses to parental behavior are frequently shamed, ultimately, we cant access them. We become numb and live an as-if life that covers up rage, despair, and emptiness.

the time of action of Recovery

We can heal our childhood trauma. In recovery, we learn missing skills, self-love, and healthy responses. Learning thrives in a safe, nonjudgmental ecosystem, different from the stultifying one we grew up in that continues to rule our mind. We need an air that welcomes experimentation and spontaneity where we can challenge the prohibitions encased in our unconscious. Take these steps:

1. Seek therapy with a competent therapist.
2. Attend Codependents Anonymous meetings, and work with a sponsor.
3. Get reacquainted with your feelings and needs. This can be a difficult course of action. Feelings live in the body. Pay attention to subtle shifts in your posture, gestures, and moods and feelings, such as deflation, numbness, anger, guilt, anxiety, hopelessness, and shame. Especially notice sudden shifts from feeling confident to insecure and present to numb or distracted. You may have just shifted from your real Self to your codependent personality – how you felt in childhood.
4. analyze triggers that shift in your mood and feelings and their associated beliefs, thoughts, and memories.
5. Do the exercises in Codependency for Dummies and Conquering Shame to accelerate this course of action.
6. Challenge your beliefs. See Deprogramming Codependent Brainwashing.
7. Write down and confront negative self-talk. Use the e-workbook 10 Steps to Self-Esteem to challenge your beliefs and inner critic.
8. Experiment, play, and try new things.

© DarleneLancer 2020

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